I am a 41 year old, single man and I am writing this blog in an attempt to rescue my life from a bitter quagmire of decline. The alarm bells in my head can no longer be ignored and it is now time for me to stand up and fight the awful, creeping apathy that now so lovingly strokes my brow, and bring to a halt my increasingly cynical disinterest in, and therefore gradual disengagement from, the world. Only then can I possibly find any kind of peace of mind, or contentment during my remaining time here on earth, or indeed any kind of meaning to my life.
I need to find my new golden path and somehow stop this descent into apathy, cowardice and cynicism; these things which seem to have slowly enveloped my entire existence and all but crippled me. So I need to explore the forgotten nooks and crannies of my life and experiences, and try to understand why I have ended up as I have. I must also attempt to create positive ways to change the things that I don’t like, and ultimately stop myself from drowning in the vast ocean of a mediocre life. I still need to make my own stamp on the world, but I don’t yet know how. So this is going to have to be an exploration… an experiment to see if I can turn my life around and bring back my joie de vivre. It might be, that all I discover is that I need professional psychiatric help. If that is the case, then I shall seek it. But I am hoping I will find much, much more.