Monthly Archives: March 2011

Contradictions, Self-Deceit and Confusion

For so many years I have been convinced that I understood exactly what was going on in my own head – that I had a firm handle on my own reality and that I was absolutely in control of my … Continue reading

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Still here…

I’m struggling with my latest entry – I’m now into week 2 of trying to write it. I am trying to identify and work out my motivations behind writing this blog and it has completely stumped me… I’m writing round … Continue reading

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Journeys Into Rage

Although this blog is brand spanking new to me, the thoughts that whirl around my slightly confused and beleaguered brain are not. I have pretty much spent my whole life looking inwardly – considering, pondering, musing, wondering, questioning… I don’t … Continue reading

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History of Me (part 1)

Compared to many people, my life so far has been relatively trauma-free. I have wonderful parents and an older sister and brother who I get on with very well. My parents were childhood sweethearts, both born in 1939. They were … Continue reading

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Working out my goals (2) The popular blog

Last week I spent five minutes making an initial list of things I want to achieve / goals. This was the list: Write a book Write an awesome song Get a new job Become an expert in something Write a … Continue reading

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Clear Weather

I thought I had posted this yesterday but this virgin blogger messed up and it stayed as a draft – here it is: It’s a beautiful sunny day and my gloom appears to have passed. Work is deathly quiet and … Continue reading

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Slipping At The Edge

My walk in Crystal Palace Park was very pleasant. It didn’t quite have the effect on me that I was hoping for. Fresh air, exercise, blowing a few cobwebs away – it was supposed to leave me feeling refreshed and … Continue reading

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Something for the weekend

This weekend is a typical weekend for me these days. I have a lie in on Saturday morning having gone to bed at about 2am the night before after watching a few more episodes of Stargate SG1 season 1 – … Continue reading

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Age Hierarchism

I’m sure there is probably a proper term or name for what I’m about to talk about, but I don’t know what it is, so I have given it my own name using a word that I don’t believe actually … Continue reading

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Dr Jekyll and Mrs Hyde – the job from hell?

I have a job and I own a flat and I consider myself lucky for that. However I have been in the same job for 8 and a half years and for the sake of my sanity I believe I … Continue reading

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